Today was the first day of school. Jade has been counting down for awhile and has been so excited to go back to school this year. She kept talking about how she was in the big kid class upstairs with Ms. Sandy. Avery, however, we just weren't sure if she was going to be able to handle going to school yet. She talked a big game for over a week. She kept wanting to wear her backpack and look at her lunch box. She said "I'm not going to cry, you are going to come back."
Jade of course ran up the stairs and couldn't get in the room fast enough. Avery, however, got scared when we started walking to her classroom. She clung to me and starting crying saying she was scared and asked me not to leave her. My heart hurt so bad. Avery is extremely attached to me and really has NEVER been apart from me besides me running to the store here and there, and even then, she is with Jeff and her sisters so she is usually fine. I tried to keep myself together in front of Avery, but all I wanted to do was bust out in tears. I went in the room with her and hung up her backpack and tried to get her off of me but she was just a mess. Three (yes, three!) teachers had to literally peel her off of me, all the while she had a huge chunk of my hair and just wouldn't let go. I felt so horrible, but I knew in my heart that she just has to learn that it's okay. I walked out and hid around the corner for about 15 minutes and she eventually calmed down. The teacher and director have sent me some pictures and updates and said she is doing okay. My heart is still heavy and I keep praying that Avery is feeling safe and loved and is at peace with being in someone else's care. I'm counting down the minutes until I go get her, I can't wait to give her a hug!
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